Jes an Ordinary Gal

Seems to me rite now, that there are a lot of things which need to be elucidate..I’m not good in expressing it in words but I’ll try my best to do it so. Since yesterday, I felt like I can’t breath without my other half (he flew back to Kuching)..now only I realize how love can affect that much in human’s life..

It’s getting harder to think of it as our engagement is just around the corner (not really around d conner, but almost)..we haven’t prepared anything and even the parents also haven’t said anything about it.. this thingy suddenly pinned on my thoughts that, would this happen or I’ll just have to wait for other spaces & time..gosshhh, not that I’m so ‘gedik’ to get engage but how can things can possibly happen when there’s nothing has been said yet done..my comel has gone back to Kuching..oohh..this is when the phrase will pop up "Life sucks, so does s***t"..

Some people might say.."why is there to rush when you have plenty of time.." Well, I’m not rushing for God sake!! Can’t they understand, I want everything to be perfect, beautiful and successful just like what I always dream..and the most important thing..I WANT IT TO BE PERFECT!!!

You guys can call me crazy or insane..but belief me, once you’re in my shoes, you’ll know & understand what has been written here..

Ohh, not just  headaches on this matter but also..I WANT A NEW JOB that pays better than now. I want a job that thrills me, which I can apply all my knowledge and skills..and the most important thing, MONEY & SATISFACTION (hahahahaha…)

I’m soo like tak keruan rite now cause, I just found out that I once had turned down an offer from a big company called ROCHE. It pays almost twice higher than what I get now..oohh, such a regret..You guys wouldn’t want to know why I rejected it..cause it’s just a stupid reason & time concerning matter..the more I think about it..feels like swallowing a big gulp of raw meat inside your throat..this been haunted me since I saw its big stylish building, stylish employees..and I’m sure, I’ll get a better opportunity in achieving my goals there..oohh thats just hurt me more..

Ohh..hurt and hurt..this my post as for now..enjor reading it..and for my enemies who came across this post..enjoy watching me being hurt..Thank you.

Here I am again..back on track on real li8fe i can say..I’m already out from the world full of lies n darkness n also world with too much of corruptions..

Itu saje kot setakat ni..hehehe..taa..

Ermmm..nothin much happened today except i did came across this blog where it makes me think hardly n deeply what have i done to this person tht make this person said such lousy things about me..i never knew this person closely, never had a real talked before n suddenly i got a punch on my face..well, i guess there is a third party who have made up stories..for the sake to escape ***self from being unwanted n rejected (as this person love to be famous,fame n pretend to be so vulnerable yet so ***hole) ..complicated but quite simple..Simple; bcoz i’m goin to ignore this matter coz i got nothin to do with it n plus m not a fool..i have brains and still have good manners of talking and also a status to care about…(status of being a matured human a.k.a homo sapiens)

Who am i to jugde other people..as i know, m not perfect either..m ugly to certain eyes that can’t see through me..pretty for the eyes that penetrate within me and just an average for the eyes tht only passes me by..deep inside me there’s an echo..saying out loud, U DON’T GIVE A DAMN BOUT WHAT PEOPLE SAID BOUT U..i do understand the ‘echo’..it keeps telling me that the people who’s been tryin to mess with my life is the peolple who is envy and curios about my life..n here i am, voicing out loud..THANK YOU for ur attention through all this while..(big clap for them)

‘HEAVEN’ n ‘HELL’…everyone would choose d ‘HEAVEN’ i bet. Why? Because everything is beautiful there n where lives are eternity..Who get to go to ‘HEAVEN’? *Only GOD knows who are the people who deserve it*..n we, as HIS slave can only live d best we can in this unlasting world….

M sure, at this moment u guys must have thought…’What d heck is she trying to tell us here?’hehehe…i don’t blame u..hehehe. Read the * again..aaaiiiggghhtt? Back to d first paragraph i have typed earlier..about this person..well it seems tht ‘this person’ like to do the decision on whose going to ‘HEAVEN’ or ‘HELL’…Guess what? This person said m going to ‘HELL’..This is CRAPPP!!! Dear GOD, lead ‘this person’ to the rite path back as she is totally lost in her own darkness…AMINNNN.

OOOOHHHH….Bai!!This ultimate purple colors font are dedicate especially for u dear…hehehe. Another thing, can u teach me how to create the ’shoutout box’..m still new with all this…hehe

And for tootsie..if ur reading this, next time it’ll be pink..promise..miss ya a lot dear..hey, when can meet exactly? Why time soo jealous of us?Still i can’t figure out what to buy for ur birthday gift…hehehe..would u like a small pink bag???would u would u…?

Yup, today is Sunday..awww,means tomorrow kena keje…malasnye nak gi keje after 2 days off..

This morning at 8am i ve been wakened up by d ringing of my bf’s hp(we exchanged phone)..n it was him,telling me tht my hp cant be charge..half awakened told him tht its ok..nevermind…aha..yup…ok…then i fell asleep back…later then at 10..not again, d hp rang for d 2nd time as if soooo jealous of me having a peaceful time..n this..’Kakak!Tdo lagi ke?’..hehehe it was my dad..nothing important, jes to confirm with me whether i’ll be going back this comin weekend coz my auntie invited my family to go to her house as she planning to cook ‘masakan kampung org penang’..n plus rambutan depan umah dia dah masak..so it’s time for the family to have a big gathering…ermm,it has been 6 months i x blk kampung..mesti jadi jakun bila blk..hehehe

ooohhh ya, my dad krm slm to all my frens out there..my dad, he knows all my frens and he also remember all their names, isn’t he cool? and also so damn handsome…especially when he wears a suit of baju Melayu and not to forget with his Christian Dior sunglasses..man..this fellar still can attract other young ladies out there..hehehe..Each time when i start talking bout him, the  face of him appear in my mind, it touches my heart so deep coz he’s now no longer a healthy man after he got a ‘diabetic stroke’..it happened last 2 years when i jes started my master..tht was the worst day of my life…it happened a week before my birthday and exactly on my birthday,the dr released him so tht he can have a long rest at home and that was the biggest and happiest birthday gift i’ve received…this was his second time having major illness..the first one was when i was in form 1, n it was on my birthday…the day when we all found out tht he got a diabetic…My dad is getting better from time to time except that his feet on the right side still paralyzed..jes hope tht one day, he’ll be as healthy as he used to be…only with the God’s will..

This is what we call life..sometimes u can be as happy as the bird singing in the sky with no worries..and sometimes as scary and sad jes like Mr.Ferrier and Rachel (War of the World) hiding themselves at the basement…And I have nothing to regret in my life…Alhamdullillah…

And Ayu..this blue font is for u…hehehe

Hehehe..at last n finally i have my own blog..well actually m just so damn glad tht i, myself got time to waste..n i hope tht, there will be more time in d future for me to do this more oftenly..insyaallah..

This week is much much way better thn last week coz this week my boss is not around..she’s taking a long leave so tht she can take care her hubby who jes came out from d icu..pity her..but at least it is a good thing for me n my labmates..rite gals? hehehe..

New semester; starting this Monday…so i have to start pumping up my research as to gain more data..n plus i have to start focusing on adding more new journals and at least to start typing few more pages for d literature review..man, dunno when can i finish d whole thing..only God and d time knows when…

To all my frens out there, thanks for all ur supports and always be there when i need u all…without u, this blog wont be existed as i believe life with lotsa frens will bring me lotsa cherish time and memories tht can be written in this blog…and also written permanently in my brain (hopefully there won’t be any brain damage in d future…lol)

To my love one n only, love me pls as if tomorrow willl end..